My quantum leap is actually just a step... (yes and no)

My quantum leap is actually just a step... (yes and no)

It feels like the edge, the precipice, the next big thing coming...

It feels exciting and the nerves are rushing

It feels like an old interpretation of anxiety, but this version of me knows this nuance better, more refined

It grows bigger, and bigger

And then the energy moves down
Feeling the truth that is below me and around me

And I can see clearly the step forward

What felt like the next quantum leap, the thing that takes all the courage, the willingness, the faith...

Is actually just a step

No jumping
No leaping 
No guessing

Just a step 
Just another step

That's it.

That's the quantum leap.

Every step is my next quantum leap...

AND EVEN THAT IS ALL AN ILLUSION.

The "step" is an illusion of my resistance,

No step is needed.

There's a bridge 
With unlimited support 
Carrying me

If I LET IT

What will it take for me to choose?

Safety for my brain...
And my brain can see the safety.

What will it really take?

I have to CHOOSE it.

And I do.

And what I ride of grounded, support and ease that is carrying me.

Oh such a tricky pattern that can keep me from RECEIVING.

And the truth that it's so much easier to CHOOSE it than to RESIST it

So here I am, 
And here I go.

(Art by Eugenia Loli)